Weird thing is..

The weird thing is ... when you are divorced you can't just STOP caring. For 12 years I cared for  my husband much (and most times more) than myself.
I cooked his dinners, washed his clothes... nursed him when he was sick or hurt (he was hurt for the last few months of our marriage)... So, when things like a storm , or floods (we have floods today) or anything like that happen.. the first thing I think of (after my kids) is him. He pops in my mind, even if I don't want him to. I wonder how he is, if he is eating, safe, sad... It isn't that I want to think or feel those things.. but I do.
When I am hurt or sad, I have often went to dial his number!
Then, there are those times when I am "driving home" only to realize that ..I am not driving to MY home anymore. And I have to change route to go home. It is usually something like the kids saying "why are we going to dads?" that jolts me back to reality... yes, dads.. not home... sigh
Or, what about the times when I am out shopping for groceries and I think "Oh I wonder what he would want for dinner tonight?" or 'I am going to make him ...." only to say to myself "Oh hey dummy, you are divorced" lol
Those are just a few of the "weird things" that happen after a divorce. I am SURE they are totally normal things and a normal process that men and woman go through during such an ordeal... but, they are obviously all new feelings to me!