I feel guilty that it seems the only time I write anymore is when I am posting my weekly "I love you " posts about Abby.
This isnt because my life suddenly became so busy that I just do NOT have the time.. it isnt because I am so obsessed with her that I can ONLY write about her now...
Its because, I sit down to type and I find myself unable.
I am unsure why, but as with many things since Abigail's birth, I have found myself just with drawn .
I LOVE to post, I love to go back and read my old posts, I love to read other peoples post yet, I have a hard time making myself do it here lately.
3 months have passed *well almost* since my sweet baby has joined our family. 3 months have gone by and while I am getting better daily *thank you LORD*... I am still not 100% the person I once was.. in a TON of ways, I am better.... and in some, I am not.. I am a work in progress. There is a reason for this darker time in my life, and the Lord knows the reasons...
Some of the lessons I have learned I dont believe I would have had I NOT gone through all of this.. some of the things that have improved would not have had I NOT gone through this.. for all of this, I am THANKFUL... for all the things that I have yet to figure out, or have yet to be shown, I am THANKFUL.
And for all the tears, all the struggles, they are every single one worth it every time I see that Huge gummy smile come across those chunky cheeks!
My trail may be over soon, or it may not be... but, I am thankful for my trial.. and thankful for the things that have come from from it...
Be patient with me ... I WILL be back.. Till then, see you all on Tuesdays :)
3 comments:
I so feel your pain, Kristy! I've been there, and it was only when I arrived at the helpless conclusion that no one could help me - not my husband, not a dear friend, not even myself - no one except the Lord Jesus...that's when I was finally able to look up.
"when my heart is overwhelmed: lead me to the rock that is higher than I" Ps. 61:2
The Lord will see you through this. Keep pressing on!
Hey Kristy! Just checkin' in on you. I am glad you are moving forward. I know it's very hard. Hang in there!!
♥ ya!
Hey Kristy, I got your message on FB and I wrote you back. I will miss you. :(
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