Happy Birthday Anna!

Around this time... 5 years ago my husband and I went to sleep for our last time without a baby in the house.

It was unexpected, even tho the Dr told me that I would go early, I never really dreamed I would go at 36 weeks. We went to bed like any other night.... I was up alot using the restroom as ALL pregnant woman do in the last months of pregnancy... Only about 1 am, I noticed something a little different about it.

I wasnt sure exactly but, it was different.... being none the wiser, I continued to go back to sleep, get up to go to the rest room...

About 7 am we woke up because my husbands friends were on there way to pick him up. THey were spending the day at a rally , listening to the Mayor in a surrounding city speak.

At this point, I was pretty positive that my water had broken and all this "difference " was small leaks. I wasnt feeling any contractions or anything so I urged my husband to go on with his day.

He REFUSED. He didnt want to be so far away from me if something were to happen. ME , I didnt want him to miss out on his day if I was just imagining things.. this was my FIRST baby. I didnt know what was up!

He encouraged me to go into the hospital but, with all the complications I didnt want to go up there and be sent home. I called my mom and she told me that it probably wasnt Labor cause I wasnt contracting yet so my water probably didnt break (hers never broke so, she wouldnt know :P)

Finally my husband had me call the Dr who told me to come in... UGH. I was CERTIAN this was all for nothing and I was very displeased to be wasting my Saturday afternoon in the hospital for NOTHING... we took our time, stopped by mcdonalds to eat breakfast... made small talk on the way.... never dreaming this was it.

WHen I got there however, I found out it was far from nothing.... THIS WAS IT. My water had in fact broken and I WAS HAVING A BABY!

I dont know about all first time moms but, Panic definatly set in. As my Husband went to the car to retrieve our stuff and make all the calls, my panic was in full force... I didnt want the baby TODAY , come on, I had some time left.. and besides what did they know anyways ...Just How positive were they that my water had broken.. the thoughts, " I wonder if they would notice if I snuck out the back" entered my mind .

Soon tho, A nurse came in and I asked her if a panic attack was normal for a mom about to deliver, she assured me it was :) and so, I Prayed... and soon there after I felt peace.

THe Labor was pretty quick ... I mean I was told I would be in labor for days.. bla bla bla... the unknown is was set my panic in a furry.

But it was short only 8 hours, an hour of pushing and my beautiful baby girl was here! Oh how I instantly loved her. I can say I love all my children the same.. but there is something about your first... Each birth is precious.. and dear but my first .. it was truely something amazing. I assume it was because I didnt know how the flood of emotions would come over me, I couldnt IMAGINE (even tho I was told) how INSTANT my love would be.. but, there it was... instant and true.

Oh how I cried... oh how I wish I could relieve that moment periodically throughuot my life.

She is now five..... 5 entire years have flown by without me catching my breath. I have had two more since then... Boys.. Mammas boys no doubt... a love that I cant explain in words for sure.. tho, not less then but different then my love for my daughter... and one day my friend.

She brings joy to everyone around her.. she has her moments... yes, we all do ... but she is geniunly joyful... she is sweet, sassy, loving, caring , kind, giving, helpful... willing, and BEAUTIFUL..

I thank the Lord that he thought enough of me to give her (and my boys) to me, to raise them and to share each and every moment that I have and will....

Her big tea party is tomorrow (well almost today as its almost midnight) .. I will share more pics of that... I am excited. but for now, pics of her "growing up"

The day after birth...
6 months old
3 years old


And current... nearly 5~